learning

Not to give away the book that I'm currently reading, since I'll write about it once I'm done.. but I'm just too excited about this to wait! I read this today and it made me cry. This is my transformation.

Sometimes the Lord lets us get to the end of our rope on a project or ambition because He loves us too much to interfere. If He were to intervene, we would never learn. But once I have tried and failed, and then give it to Him, I know the next time to trust Him with it from the start. God's love is patient, and His patience with me allows me to discover for myself that I can trust Him completely.
-From Love Is Now by Peter Gillquist

I remember saying to God, "I don't trust You. How can I trust You when you give me this phenomenal person and then take him away so abruptly, and of all things, to use him for something good? No. I don't trust You. I don't know how I can after this." and that's what it took.. a total breakdown. God said "See, that's the thing. You aren't trusting me. You haven't been. You've been saying that you were, but you weren't, not really. It's time that you start trusting that My plan is better than yours. I know things that you don't, I see things that You can't. I know what is good for you. And sometimes, the best thing is to take it away from you to show you just how much you need to rely on me for your answers and fulfillment."