why not?

Just watched a slide show from my aunt and uncle's time in the Peace Corps in Jordan for the last year. I had to keep myself from crying as I watched it.

I get it. I absolutely get it.

My question is, why aren't we all serving overseas? We are all capable. Why are we still here? Why don't we all go? Why are we so obsessed with holding onto all of these things that don't really make us happy? Why are we all still here, sitting on our hands?

I get that we are making a difference in our own ways, and that we can make a difference at home, it doesn't have to be somewhere else. But why not? Why not?

Really. The question isn't why, but why not?

Why do we limit ourselves from what God can do through us? Is it really that scary? He will provide. He never sends us anywhere alone or unprepared. He's with us. He loves us. He'll provide. He'll never leave us alone or scared.

Why aren't we there? Why do we hold on to all of these things? Are we afraid to let go of people? People will understand in time. It will be painful. But it will be worth it.

They talked about how people say "Inshallah" - "If God wills" .. as in planning, that if God wills it, it will happen.

God, You are speaking to me. So loudly it blows my mind.

I will do God's will wherever it is, whatever it means I'd be doing. I know I won't be alone or unprepared. He goes before me, He will make a way.

If that means I'll be a pastor and therapist here in the states, or a somethingoranother in somewhereoranother.. inshallah.

God, use me. Wherever that is. Make a way. Make a path. Light my feet on the way. Show me where, and I'll go. If that's here, if that's Tanzania. I'll go. I'll go anywhere you send me. I'll do anything you tell me to. I trust You. In a way I never have before. Fully, completely, trust You.