thoughts on words

In the past month of transformation, new beginning, all that this has been, God has made me keenly aware of language. He has changed how I view my life in Him and my journey. It has also made me aware of how others use words.

Notice the difference between the simple words "I am..." vs. "He is..." Who is getting the credit for the work? Who is really doing the work?

It's about God. He is doing the work. He is the one who is transforming me and my life, and my journey. It's nothing that I am doing. This is Him moving through me, living through me. I can't take credit for any of this. If it were about me, I'd be awfully tired and beaten down. Honestly, to be completely completely honest, if it was truly about my strength, I would have given up by now. I know that's a packed statement, and can mean a lot of things. And most of those things, it means.

But the beautiful thing about all of this is it is not about me. I cannot say that enough. I'll be writing more about that statement as I dive deeper into what this transformation has done and is doing, by God's power and His plan. But the point is, it's not about my power. It's not about what I want.

He has transformed how I speak. I no longer take the credit. Honestly, I don't want the credit. He deserves it. He is a mighty God and His power and plan is amazing me each day. I can't take credit for this.

But I catch myself sometimes, and laugh a little at myself for thinking that I am playing any part in this. Honestly, the less I play a part in my life, the better it goes, because God is in the driver's seat and He can see farther off into the horizon than I could ever attempt. He knows what's best, and He knows the journey to get there.

And I hear others say "I am preparing myself..." or "I am going to..." and I wonder a few things.
1)  Is God in the driver's seat for them and their journey? And I don't by any means mean this in a judgmental sort of way. Nothing like "Well He is for me, so..." but more of a, I wonder. I wonder if they see the power in language.
2)  Are they really preparing themselves or are they letting Him? Whose strength is it relying on?
3)  How flexible are their "plans"? I chuckle as I write that because, well, let's be real. Mine weren't very flexible. And only by the power of God are they becoming in any way flexible. I'll get back to that later, as I write about breaking down my foundation... (oh cliffhangers, I tell ya).

But yeah, that's my latest thought. Who is it really about? Him or me? Who do I want it to be about? I can tell you who it was really about before, and who it's becoming about now. I say "becoming" because I feel like I'm a work in progress. This is by no means an overnight thing. It's day by day. And God is in all of it.