permanence

Yup. Still thinking.

Thinking about permanence. I've learned through this journey to not swear-off anything. I don't know how God is going to use everything, or if anything is every really truly done. Intangibles and tangibles. I don't know when this work in me is going to be "done," if ever. I doubt it will ever be done. I think we are all works in progress. Similarly, I don't know if that relationship is truly done, finished, the end, for life. I don't know anything. I don't know how God will bring things and people in and out. It's quite possible that the relationship served it's purpose, and that's that. But as much as I don't know anything, I don't know that. The key is not clinging to one idea, or one reality. When you surrender, you let it all go. Including all of the ideas of what you think you would want. Yes, letting go, letting God, and being open. I am open to it all. I trust that He will do what is best for me. If I cling to an idea of what I think I want, I will try to manipulate the situation so that that is what would happen. And that's not how this works. That's not how surrender works. That's not what God wants me to do.

This life is not my own, this path is not my own. This plan is not my own. He will use it. And I will let Him. However He chooses. He knows what's best for me.